The past few weeks have been weird, and I feel as if I am starting to see things from a new perspective. I used to be extremely self conscious about what other people thought of me and my understanding was that I had to conform in order to be friends with certain people. And just now I am finally seeing how dumb that is and how utterly stupid that sounds. I shouldn’t have to act a certain way to please people. If they are truly my friends then I can be my pure and genuine self. And the truth is, yeah sometimes I am annoying, loud, and probably come off a little bit obnoxious. But that's what makes me me and yeah I will try to work on that, but I shouldn’t have to completely change for certain people to like me. Because if that's the case, then they really are not worth my time. I know now that I don’t have to have a big friend group to feel appreciated or secure in my life. I've realized that having a close knit group of friends who support and love me is much more preferable to fabricating the illusion of having an enormous group of friends who I don't know as well. I choose to surround myself with amazing people who push me to be a better person, even if that is only three or four people. Because the truth is, those three people are some of the best people I have ever met and they know my flaws but they help me embrace them. They never expect me to be someone I am not and I will forever be grateful for that.