yesterday i was going through my old film photographs and i was nostalgic, to say the very least. since i don’t have these digitally stored, there was a certain sense of abandonment that came along with going through these old negatives. it reminded me of a time when i took pictures for art, for the sole purpose of creating something beautiful. thats something i have lost.
these past few months have been good, i say good but i really mean they have been hard, like extremely difficult. i have been so swept up with “priorities” that i have forgotten what i genuinely enjoy doing. swept up with new equipment i need, that i have forgotten that megapixels is merely an extension of an image, not what defines it.
I’m overwhelmed. overwhelmed with my creative energy, this might seem stupid, but its real. i find my mind running around in circles for hours just trying to process an idea, to thoroughly think through everything i want to do and my mind tends to lose track of it all. school is priority and i know that, but sometimes i don’t want it to be. i want to be able to express my opinions through groundbreaking art that changes peoples perspectives, but time is what i am lacking.
time is subjective and i need to remember that.
i started junior year 103 days ago, i turned sixteen 62 days ago, crazy stuff
anyways, i have a youtube channel now, and i post weekend vlogs every sunday because i don’t have enough time to upload during the school week
i want to start using this platform more, i know i said something along those lines in the last post but really, i need to stop trying to make everything perfect, because IT NEVER WILL BE, but for some strange reason i can never remember that.